I climbed the Papandayan mountain. I prayed (salat) with the stars as my roof, the grass as my floor, the trees as my wall, and the wind as my blanket. I want to do it again. People who had already climbed a mountain, usually want to do it again. And I am no exception.
This weekend I was supposed to be heading for Bogor to climb Gede and Pangrango Mountain. Yet, here I am struggling with agonizing pain.
I have a disease called Hernia Nucleus Pulposus. It’s a disease who got something to do with spinal cord. You better googled it to get comprehensive explanation. After this thing emerged on my high school period, I was forbidden to do any heavy sport. This made me give up my taekwondo which I like so much. After going for fucking painful therapy for a couple of months, the symptoms started to disappear.
Supposedly, the only sport I am allowed to do is swimming. I love swimming, it’s just, it’s not fun. it’s not challenging nor exciting. After almost 4 years since my therapy i began to think that I should try to do some sports again, assuming I have fully recovered. I could survive badminton, futsal, table tennis after a couple of try outs. I tried taekwondo, too bad it’s too heavy for my spine. So, then i tried hiking after my last hike to Manglayang mountain was on junior high school. I felt the jolt of pain sometime when i climb, but it was just for a short period, and plus it was an easy track, i figured it was okay. although i felt worser pain at night and in the morning when i woke up, but it didnt bother me on the hiking process.
When I got back from papandayan mountain, not only sunburn I got the worser back pain. Not only worse, it’s constantly there. usually it was coming and going. but now everytime i sit or sleep it’s always painful. I don’t know what I should do. No medication could permanently fix it, only operation could fix my messed up spine. Not only painful, it made me suffer cause i can’t do what i really wanna do: climb Gede Pangrango mountains. The first plan was to made me carry minimum burden, but then the problem is not only the burden but the heavy movement in hiking, it pressures my spine, moreover, hiking these mountains is tougher than the previous mountains i’ve hiked, it took 9 hours just for the first part. so the doctor forbid me to hike.
now, im stuck with midnight agony. i cant sleep. every position is painful. plus now i got perut kembung, made me nauseous, constant huge burp and headache. i dont know whether this is the side effect of upgrading my painkiller into something new: kalium diclofenac. cause mephenamic acid or asam mefenamat got no teeth for me.
Go away back pain! WE ARE YOUNG! I am supposed to set the world on fire~
